Thursday, December 18, 2014
Sheena Cat's Wisdom
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
Shirley Bird Teaches Me About Being Comfortable With Who You Are
Shirley Bird teaches me about being comfortable with who you are.
Ever since I got Shirley Bird I have called myself her "nylon mommy" because I like to wear nylon jackets and pants to keep the moisture in. It took her about 2 weeks to learn how to "ice skate" on my jackets.
One day I saw her snuggling in Joe's cotton t-shirt to get her wings dry after a splash in her dish. I thought well next time I will take off my nylon jacket and let her snuggle on my sweatshirt. So I did. I took off my nylon jacket and laid it on the chair beside me in the dining room. After her splash she hopped on my arm and then my neck and then down to snuggle on my pants. Hmm that is strange. I thought she would like the cotton sweatshirt. She hopped up my leg and pointed her little beak toward the jacket laying besides me. Then she snuggled down in my nylon pants again. The next time she took a bath I kept my jacket on. She snuggled down into my elbow. She loves her nylon mommy
Shirley Bird taught me that animals like us for exactly who we are! We don't have to change for them or anyone.
Ever since I got Shirley Bird I have called myself her "nylon mommy" because I like to wear nylon jackets and pants to keep the moisture in. It took her about 2 weeks to learn how to "ice skate" on my jackets.
One day I saw her snuggling in Joe's cotton t-shirt to get her wings dry after a splash in her dish. I thought well next time I will take off my nylon jacket and let her snuggle on my sweatshirt. So I did. I took off my nylon jacket and laid it on the chair beside me in the dining room. After her splash she hopped on my arm and then my neck and then down to snuggle on my pants. Hmm that is strange. I thought she would like the cotton sweatshirt. She hopped up my leg and pointed her little beak toward the jacket laying besides me. Then she snuggled down in my nylon pants again. The next time she took a bath I kept my jacket on. She snuggled down into my elbow. She loves her nylon mommy
Shirley Bird taught me that animals like us for exactly who we are! We don't have to change for them or anyone.
Sunday, September 14, 2014
Zack A Boo
This Zack
I emailed his person and here is his story.
Bless
your hearts. Your pom looks so sweet. I understand your Las since
my babygirl passed almost a year ago andi was so devastated. I had her
buried in my back yard so she would still be home.
His
name is Zack. He does always look so sad, but he loves attention and
is really a sweet dog. I feel bad for him that my other dogs run him
over since they are so hyper.
He loves car rides, being walked, belly rubs, etc.
He loves car rides, being walked, belly rubs, etc.
He
has no health concerns other than a genetic under bite, his sister has
one too. His eyes need to get wiped periodically because he gets muck
build up. No big deal.
He weighs about 7 pounds.
He loves any attention, men, women, children, dogs, cats. He'll lay down with you to take a nap.
I
feed all my dogs beneful (better breath flavor). They don't gorge on
food, it's available to them all day and they pick at it whenever they
want to eat.
I'm
sending 2 pics that I just took of him. He has two nicknames that he
answers to as well, one is butthurt because he's so sad looking all the
time. The other is Boo, just because I like it for him.
He's so happy when he goes on walks, his tail is always up. He loves
to mark his spots during his journey. I will include his harness too.
He has never been a dog that fetches, but he will play with small toys
(cat toys are a good size for his small
mouth). He will growl if he feels that someone is going to take his
treat away (I would too).
I
make my dogs their doggie treats and they love them. I make
dehydrated liver, and liver and carrot bites. He's very patient and
will wait his turn.
He's not afraid of thunder or fireworks.
Every morning he's the first one to greet me when I come out of my room. He'd be perfectly fine sleeping in your room too.
At dog parks he tends to migrate towards the large breed dogs for some reason.
If you're interested, I could bring him to your home for an introduction to see how he does.
Thanks for your interest. I hope this information helps.
Barbara
I made the connection that Zack looks like a dog version of The Grumpy Cat
Now I got sick September 14 and will be having surgery for more skin cancer removal on October 7 and let Barbara know. I also shared the Grumpy Cat relation. This is her response.
Hi,
Yes,
I'm very familiar with Grumpy Cat. Zack is very much like that. He
can't help his face. I hope you are feeling better soon.
I'm
sure we'll still have him by the time you're ready and healed. I'm
more than happy to bring him for a meet & greet when it's
convenient.
Let me know when it's the right time, and we'll work out the details.
Take care,
Barbara
Then because of the "can't help his face" comment I suddenly remembered all the times kids would point and say "look at his face! " at me! They couldn't get passed my red face to see the happy me. I think Zack and I will have a good story to tell that you can't judge someone by how they look.
Shirley Bird has fun!
Since I had been sick with the flu yesterday and did not let the birds out.
Today I let them out. Shirley Bird flew into the office and lighted on my arm. Then she flew right back into the dining room Ah she wants a bath I remembered. So she got her bath in her special plate while I looked on and got wet too. Then she hopped to my jacket to get warm. Shirley Bird bounces around a lot. So she bounced down to my lap and stayed there looking up at me so sweetly with her beak in the air and her feathers all puffed out. Suddenly I had the urge to pass gas. I told Shirley Bird "Oh you are not going to like this" Gas passed. Shirley looked up at me. Then she backed up and landed a poo right on my knee. "Alright we're even." I said. Then she settled back down on my lap until I felt it was time for her to go back in her cage.
Today I let them out. Shirley Bird flew into the office and lighted on my arm. Then she flew right back into the dining room Ah she wants a bath I remembered. So she got her bath in her special plate while I looked on and got wet too. Then she hopped to my jacket to get warm. Shirley Bird bounces around a lot. So she bounced down to my lap and stayed there looking up at me so sweetly with her beak in the air and her feathers all puffed out. Suddenly I had the urge to pass gas. I told Shirley Bird "Oh you are not going to like this" Gas passed. Shirley looked up at me. Then she backed up and landed a poo right on my knee. "Alright we're even." I said. Then she settled back down on my lap until I felt it was time for her to go back in her cage.
Joe's Dog Trouble His Auststralian Shepard
Seeing Trouble Joe's Australian Shepard
I had a dream that I saw a medium size dog happily licking out an empty ice cream container. The dog's tongue went around and around the insides. I saw pink and white ice cream. The dog got so happy that it almost wore it on its head!Then I asked in my dream. Are you Trouble? She said "yes but now I am Susan. I was happy to have that! (ice cream) That was my favorite!"
I must have been halfway awake. Because then the dream turned into a vision and I could clearly see her. The right ear was black and her muzzle was white with spots of grey and black but mostly white. And definitely the right ear black. Then she walked over to Joe's side of the bed. She stopped when she saw Toby laying down in the middle of the floor next to Joe. She nudged him with her nose. I had a feeling of being dominant. Toby rolled over and backed up to the nightstand and onto Joe's shorts. Trouble asked "who are you?"Toby said "I was Snoopy Now I am Toby. I take care of Joe. " I had to interrupt and ask, How do you take care of Joe? Toby said "just being with someone is taking care of them"
Trouble lay down in the middle of the floor near Joe with a huff and a sigh.
The two dogs lay nose to nose. I said goodnight. And drifted off back to sleep.
I had a dream that I saw a medium size dog happily licking out an empty ice cream container. The dog's tongue went around and around the insides. I saw pink and white ice cream. The dog got so happy that it almost wore it on its head!Then I asked in my dream. Are you Trouble? She said "yes but now I am Susan. I was happy to have that! (ice cream) That was my favorite!"
I must have been halfway awake. Because then the dream turned into a vision and I could clearly see her. The right ear was black and her muzzle was white with spots of grey and black but mostly white. And definitely the right ear black. Then she walked over to Joe's side of the bed. She stopped when she saw Toby laying down in the middle of the floor next to Joe. She nudged him with her nose. I had a feeling of being dominant. Toby rolled over and backed up to the nightstand and onto Joe's shorts. Trouble asked "who are you?"Toby said "I was Snoopy Now I am Toby. I take care of Joe. " I had to interrupt and ask, How do you take care of Joe? Toby said "just being with someone is taking care of them"
Trouble lay down in the middle of the floor near Joe with a huff and a sigh.
The two dogs lay nose to nose. I said goodnight. And drifted off back to sleep.
Wednesday, September 10, 2014
Animal Communications
September 10 2014
Fly Friend 3rd visit
He was out on the screen last night!
I got up at 2am to go to the bathroom. I saw a fly shaped speck on the screen in our bedroom. I slowly raised my finger to the screen and touched his little body. He didn't move. I said Hi Fly Friend what are doing on the screen? " He said "I just wanted to be close to you" Oh my a fly that is in love with me! Even to come and sit on the window in the moonlight waiting for his little princess human. I also asked how he knew I was in the bedroom. He said "I could smell you and feel your warmth" Awe
And all this has taught me that animal companions are surrounding me! I don't have to look for a feathered finned or furry. They will come to me in love when I need them or they need me.
September 10 2014
Lizard Friend
While getting dressed in the morning, I always look for our resident lizards in the woodpile out back. I couldn't see any. So I asked. "could one of you please move around a bit? I can't see you as well as Joe can" As soon as I thought that, a baby lizard skittered out in front of the window! He was only about 3inches long. Just as quickly as he came out. he ran back to his sunny spot on a paver by the AC. "oh thank you " I said. Then I turned around and he was gone. I asked what happened. He said "mom called me I wasn't supposed to be seen" I replied "Oh of course lizards and people have different rules and you should listen to you mom. Bye and thanks for saying hi"
P.S. he came up on the patio while I was sitting in the office! Joe spotted him.
September 10 2014
Shirley Bird
Mnn Teriyaki burgers
And Shirley Bird joined us!
Joe offered her a pinch of bread. She said uh uh...and hopped over to the hand that held the whole burger! She tore off a piece of lettuce and wiped the mayonaise on his arm.
Then I got her water plate out. WE ALL GOT A SHOWER at the dining table! Shirley had so much fun splashing water on both of us.Then she nestled in my elbow. Cloud called her back over to his cage. She went in.
what a fun lunch
September 7 2014
Fly Friend second visit
Fly Friend visited me again!
This time I was sitting outside eating ice cream and reading on my Kindle. Fly Friend walked around the rim of the Kindle just like he did when he was inside the house and then onto my hand and never went near my face
I went in and came back out with a plate of nachos and cheese. Fly Friend came back, He landed on my hand again. I said he could have some off my plate. He sampled it and said "that's too much" and landed on my thumb always the one on the Kindle. He did take tiny licks off my thumb then he was gone.
I have to let you all know that when I brought a burrito out in the garage I was swarmed with flies!
Not only is Fly Friend polite. He is keeping the other flies away from me in the backyard
September 2 2014
I met the most POLITE FLY friend today!
He came in with Joe this morning and landed on my bed blankets. I imediatelly set up a boundary thinking in my head "do not come near my face or you will get killed!" That said I let him fly and waited. I was reading my Kindle and drinking coffee. He aproached cautiously. Then he landed on the Kindle. He walked around the rim of the reader for over half an hour! I read 2 chapters and sipped my coffee. I asked him with my thoughts "why aren't you outside with the others?" The Fly Friend told my thoughts "Because I don't fly straight and they don't like me And I don't like to eat dog poop! YUCK! I want proper food! Real food" Ok I said in my thoughts "there is a new wrapper of a granola bar in the garbage if you want that" He said "I don't like garbage left overs either"..I said suite yourself and continued reading. He kept hopping from my covers to the Kindle and walking around. Finally it was time for my shower. "Ok i'm done with my coffee" I thought and no sooner had the thought left my head when Fly Friend landed on the rim and began licking up the crumbs and liquid. I laughed so hard that he was SO patient and waited for me to finish! I warned him that coffee is a stimulant and might make him hyper. I told him in my thoughts. I am going to set the cup down now." He stayed on the cup. I told him " I am going to take my shower and put clothes on and then I can let you back outside but you will have to follow the scent trail of the coffee to the office because that is the only door that opens to the outside." Then I left to go get my shower. When I returned I found Fly Friend standing on the rim of the waist basket looking for the granola bar wrapper. He saw me and landed on my shoes near my dresser. He asked "is this clothes?" Yep I said That is clothes. Follow me and I will let you out. He asked why humans changed colors / clothes so often. I didn't have a good answer. I told him he was the most Polite Fly Friend I have ever met! He said I was the most polite human he had ever met
Fly Friend 3rd visit
He was out on the screen last night!
I got up at 2am to go to the bathroom. I saw a fly shaped speck on the screen in our bedroom. I slowly raised my finger to the screen and touched his little body. He didn't move. I said Hi Fly Friend what are doing on the screen? " He said "I just wanted to be close to you" Oh my a fly that is in love with me! Even to come and sit on the window in the moonlight waiting for his little princess human. I also asked how he knew I was in the bedroom. He said "I could smell you and feel your warmth" Awe
And all this has taught me that animal companions are surrounding me! I don't have to look for a feathered finned or furry. They will come to me in love when I need them or they need me.
September 10 2014
Lizard Friend
While getting dressed in the morning, I always look for our resident lizards in the woodpile out back. I couldn't see any. So I asked. "could one of you please move around a bit? I can't see you as well as Joe can" As soon as I thought that, a baby lizard skittered out in front of the window! He was only about 3inches long. Just as quickly as he came out. he ran back to his sunny spot on a paver by the AC. "oh thank you " I said. Then I turned around and he was gone. I asked what happened. He said "mom called me I wasn't supposed to be seen" I replied "Oh of course lizards and people have different rules and you should listen to you mom. Bye and thanks for saying hi"
P.S. he came up on the patio while I was sitting in the office! Joe spotted him.
September 10 2014
Shirley Bird
Mnn Teriyaki burgers
And Shirley Bird joined us!
Joe offered her a pinch of bread. She said uh uh...and hopped over to the hand that held the whole burger! She tore off a piece of lettuce and wiped the mayonaise on his arm.
Then I got her water plate out. WE ALL GOT A SHOWER at the dining table! Shirley had so much fun splashing water on both of us.Then she nestled in my elbow. Cloud called her back over to his cage. She went in.
what a fun lunch
September 7 2014
Fly Friend second visit
Fly Friend visited me again!
This time I was sitting outside eating ice cream and reading on my Kindle. Fly Friend walked around the rim of the Kindle just like he did when he was inside the house and then onto my hand and never went near my face
I went in and came back out with a plate of nachos and cheese. Fly Friend came back, He landed on my hand again. I said he could have some off my plate. He sampled it and said "that's too much" and landed on my thumb always the one on the Kindle. He did take tiny licks off my thumb then he was gone.
I have to let you all know that when I brought a burrito out in the garage I was swarmed with flies!
Not only is Fly Friend polite. He is keeping the other flies away from me in the backyard
September 2 2014
I met the most POLITE FLY friend today!
He came in with Joe this morning and landed on my bed blankets. I imediatelly set up a boundary thinking in my head "do not come near my face or you will get killed!" That said I let him fly and waited. I was reading my Kindle and drinking coffee. He aproached cautiously. Then he landed on the Kindle. He walked around the rim of the reader for over half an hour! I read 2 chapters and sipped my coffee. I asked him with my thoughts "why aren't you outside with the others?" The Fly Friend told my thoughts "Because I don't fly straight and they don't like me And I don't like to eat dog poop! YUCK! I want proper food! Real food" Ok I said in my thoughts "there is a new wrapper of a granola bar in the garbage if you want that" He said "I don't like garbage left overs either"..I said suite yourself and continued reading. He kept hopping from my covers to the Kindle and walking around. Finally it was time for my shower. "Ok i'm done with my coffee" I thought and no sooner had the thought left my head when Fly Friend landed on the rim and began licking up the crumbs and liquid. I laughed so hard that he was SO patient and waited for me to finish! I warned him that coffee is a stimulant and might make him hyper. I told him in my thoughts. I am going to set the cup down now." He stayed on the cup. I told him " I am going to take my shower and put clothes on and then I can let you back outside but you will have to follow the scent trail of the coffee to the office because that is the only door that opens to the outside." Then I left to go get my shower. When I returned I found Fly Friend standing on the rim of the waist basket looking for the granola bar wrapper. He saw me and landed on my shoes near my dresser. He asked "is this clothes?" Yep I said That is clothes. Follow me and I will let you out. He asked why humans changed colors / clothes so often. I didn't have a good answer. I told him he was the most Polite Fly Friend I have ever met! He said I was the most polite human he had ever met
Saturday, May 31, 2014
Storm in the Mind
Warfare and Worship
Last night I had an amazing dream in that it started out scary , but ended up wonderful with God's good grace!
It started out I was in a huge retreat cabin with high beam ceilings and an open layout with a stone fireplace. In the living room area were lots of famous actors and actresses that I had found attractive in my life time. They were all there. Then some would get up and go to private quarters and get undressed I could see this . Then I was being seduced by several. It felt good for a moment to be admired. Then I refused one man. He got angry and called me dirty names. I got up got dressed and said "ENOUGH!" very loudly. Suddenly all those actors and actresses disapeared and turned into people I had met at various different churches in my life. They were just talking and relaxing on the sofas. A song welled up within me." Hallelujah Hallelujah..God is the fairest among all the rest...God is my hero and my King...Hallelujah Hallelujah.." There were some in the building that were musicians and picked up the song right away on their guitars and a piano. I saw a small throw blanket on the chair near me and began waving it like a banner. I started dancing and twirling. Then I woke up!
Last night I had an amazing dream in that it started out scary , but ended up wonderful with God's good grace!
It started out I was in a huge retreat cabin with high beam ceilings and an open layout with a stone fireplace. In the living room area were lots of famous actors and actresses that I had found attractive in my life time. They were all there. Then some would get up and go to private quarters and get undressed I could see this . Then I was being seduced by several. It felt good for a moment to be admired. Then I refused one man. He got angry and called me dirty names. I got up got dressed and said "ENOUGH!" very loudly. Suddenly all those actors and actresses disapeared and turned into people I had met at various different churches in my life. They were just talking and relaxing on the sofas. A song welled up within me." Hallelujah Hallelujah..God is the fairest among all the rest...God is my hero and my King...Hallelujah Hallelujah.." There were some in the building that were musicians and picked up the song right away on their guitars and a piano. I saw a small throw blanket on the chair near me and began waving it like a banner. I started dancing and twirling. Then I woke up!
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
Survival in a desert land
Watching videos on survival techniques I came across "how to open a can without a can opener" rub the can upside down on cement until the edges are rough. Turn right side up and squeeze the lid out. Joe showed me his army issue P-38 can opener. I looked up that video too. Incredible that such a little device could open a can. Any way I posted the video instructions on how use a P-38 and this is a comment i got
your comment on my P38 can opener sparked a whole interesting conversation What to do in a Zombie Apocolips. I told Joe i wouldn't last long without water even with a good amount of supplies BUT I could ward off the Zombies with a petronis spell and God on my side! He said ya and then you would fall over tired LOL
your comment on my P38 can opener sparked a whole interesting conversation What to do in a Zombie Apocolips. I told Joe i wouldn't last long without water even with a good amount of supplies BUT I could ward off the Zombies with a petronis spell and God on my side! He said ya and then you would fall over tired LOL
And we are both thinking about container gardening in the backyard to supplement our food supply complete with rain barrels and greenhouses!
Here is a scripture reference for this
12Isaac planted crops in that land and the same year reaped a hundredfold, because the Lord blessed him. 13The man became rich, and his wealth continued to grow until he became very wealthy. 14He had so many flocks and herds and servants that the Philistines envied him. 15So all the wells that his father’s servants had dug in the time of his father Abraham, the Philistines stopped up, filling them with earth.
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
Freedom
Last night I imagined holding Amber Sunshine's paw in my hand like she
used to let me do. I told her I loved her.I enjoyed her free spirit but
we had a quieter lifestyle and that she needed to go somewhere where she
could run stomp dig and bark all she wanted! I prayed she would find a
house with another to play with if she wanted and thanked her for the
love and Sunshine she brought to my heart.
This morning I was reading a book called Cat Lovers Devotions. This story was about an old cant who found her freedom. She had been living with 2 toddlers and was hiding alot. Then when they left she started playing like a young kitten again climbing the drapes and running in circles. The devotion asked when have you felt held back What can open up freedom in your life. Just then Joe peeked around the corner to tell me that Cloud parakeet FLEW! He heard wings and walked in the kitchen to see Cloud hopping back in the cage!. Cloud has not flown for a year since he fell and got hung up on the drapes. Joe had tears in his eyes. Every day for a year we leave the cage open and Joe encourages Cloud to fly again. Hurray!
I watched the sparrows picking the seeds and bugs off the sandy backyard uninterrupted by a fuzzy dog. I think Cloud sensed their freedom and was celebrating with them!
So I am going to enjoy our backyard with all the wild and free critters.
AK
This morning I was reading a book called Cat Lovers Devotions. This story was about an old cant who found her freedom. She had been living with 2 toddlers and was hiding alot. Then when they left she started playing like a young kitten again climbing the drapes and running in circles. The devotion asked when have you felt held back What can open up freedom in your life. Just then Joe peeked around the corner to tell me that Cloud parakeet FLEW! He heard wings and walked in the kitchen to see Cloud hopping back in the cage!. Cloud has not flown for a year since he fell and got hung up on the drapes. Joe had tears in his eyes. Every day for a year we leave the cage open and Joe encourages Cloud to fly again. Hurray!
I watched the sparrows picking the seeds and bugs off the sandy backyard uninterrupted by a fuzzy dog. I think Cloud sensed their freedom and was celebrating with them!
So I am going to enjoy our backyard with all the wild and free critters.
AK
Monday, April 28, 2014
Living in the supernatural Making it practical
If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If
I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge;
and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have
love, I am nothing.… I Corinthians 13:1,2
I am reading about living in the supernatural with God and His angels. This is easy for me to do. I can be thrown into heaven with just 2 worship songs while lying in bed.
The harder act is to live in kindness. Stretching out my arms to give the lady in the wheel chair a hug knowing she cannot return it. Sitting with the drunk person after church with a cup of coffee just to listen to his story. Giving the coworker a break and doing extra chores so they can go home to be with their family.
Sure I can pray for the lady to rise up and be healed. I can pray for the man to be delivered from alcohol. I can leave work early and enjoy a dinner out praying God will lighten the load for my coworker. OR I can be faith in action. Kindness takes practice.
It takes strength to keep a reign on my thoughts and words. It takes strength to get out my chair and walk up to give a hug. It takes strength to listen to someone unburden their heart. It takes strength to take on extra physical tasks so some else can have a break. Just like any other physical activity I have to practice acts of kindness. My arms will extend longer. My thoughts will become less judgemental. My body will look for ways to serve others.
Finally ...Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Philippians 4:5
I am reading about living in the supernatural with God and His angels. This is easy for me to do. I can be thrown into heaven with just 2 worship songs while lying in bed.
The harder act is to live in kindness. Stretching out my arms to give the lady in the wheel chair a hug knowing she cannot return it. Sitting with the drunk person after church with a cup of coffee just to listen to his story. Giving the coworker a break and doing extra chores so they can go home to be with their family.
Sure I can pray for the lady to rise up and be healed. I can pray for the man to be delivered from alcohol. I can leave work early and enjoy a dinner out praying God will lighten the load for my coworker. OR I can be faith in action. Kindness takes practice.
It takes strength to keep a reign on my thoughts and words. It takes strength to get out my chair and walk up to give a hug. It takes strength to listen to someone unburden their heart. It takes strength to take on extra physical tasks so some else can have a break. Just like any other physical activity I have to practice acts of kindness. My arms will extend longer. My thoughts will become less judgemental. My body will look for ways to serve others.
Finally ...Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Philippians 4:5
Sunday, March 9, 2014
Grandma's Angel Invites Me Back Into the Community
Yesterday I had a vision of my grandma's angel. I used to see her frequently while taking care of Grandam at night. The last time I saw her was on my wedding day 9 years ago and she was in the chapel sitting in one of the vacant chairs with a huge smile on her face.
Yesterday I didn't feel like reading my daily devotions. I didn't feel like doing anything! I sighed. All the books on angels and heaven don't mean a thing if I don't have the energy to share it.
Suddenly I saw her! Grandma's angel pulled up a wooden rail chair and sat next to my bed! Same pink and lavender dress Same auburn red hair Same smile. She said "Lets get you well so you can go back to doing the things you like doing! Lets get you back in the community!" She held my hand and smiled. I felt such peace. Then she faded away. I thanked God for sending that grace of hope and healing.
Thursday, January 2, 2014
Key To Forgiveness (dream)
Last night I had a full story dream I am going to share it with you now and hope that it encourages someone out there
The Key To Forgiveness
It was a sunny cool day in downtown somewhere. Our church group had decided to take a day trip after our Bible study for lunch. All 12 of us piled in the old red church van and headed downtown. The streets were crowded at lunch time so the driver parked our van on a side street. We all wanted to have lunch at a different restaurant. So we came up with a plan to go to the deli or restaurant of our choice and meet back on the corner spot with the most outside tables.
I started walking back past the alley where the van was parked to get to the bagel shop across the street when all of the sudden a man in a black woolen hat and leather jacket jumped out from behind our van and grabbed me. I struggled hard and managed to back away. Just then the man dipped into my pocket to take my cell phone. I took this half a second to plant myself and shove him backwards. The man fell with a thunk on the sidewalk. I looked on as blood spilled from his head. Someone had called the police. I heard the sirens and felt a touch on my arm and saw the shadow of a blue uniform. But before I could say thank you , the police man twisted my arm back and started to cuff me. He thought I was the bad person shoving someone down to get to their cell phone! I panicked. A crowd of spectators was gathering with various reports of the incident. I backed away slowly while the officer was taking notes. I started shaking and wanted shelter. My church friends were still inside the other restaurants ordering their lunch. I saw an open cop car and crawled in behind the drivers seat like a scared child. I heard my pastors voice explaining that he had no idea what happened. Then all I heard was the rush of blood in my ears and the pounding of my heart as I sat curled up in the seat well. Suddenly there was a hand of a man wearing a light blue work shirt. In his hand he held out a brass key with the loop in the shape of a heart. I felt I should take it. I did. Underneath the key were the words FORGIVEN written in blue ink on the man's palm.
2 weeks had gone by in my dream. The key was tied around my neck with a black ribbon. It was my security as I testified in court about the attack. The court case was a very stressful ordeal for me. I had to retell the attack in front of my attacker and dozens of people. I also had to testify why I resisted arrest. Being in a panic after being jumped on from behind I thought the officer was another attacker! Who was wrong? Who was guilty? I was so confused.
I came home and stood in front of the bathroom mirror and looked at my exhausted self. Then I started shaking and the shaking got stronger until I finally collapsed in a heap of tears on the bathroom floor clutching the brass key with the heart. Shaking shaking and crying I writhed in pain and guilt . When finally the shaking subsided I opened my fist and saw the key. Only this time there was a spot of blood in my palm where the key had dug in and a pink heart indentation where the ring pressed it's mark on my hand......FORGIVEN ......
Then I woke up
The Key To Forgiveness
It was a sunny cool day in downtown somewhere. Our church group had decided to take a day trip after our Bible study for lunch. All 12 of us piled in the old red church van and headed downtown. The streets were crowded at lunch time so the driver parked our van on a side street. We all wanted to have lunch at a different restaurant. So we came up with a plan to go to the deli or restaurant of our choice and meet back on the corner spot with the most outside tables.
I started walking back past the alley where the van was parked to get to the bagel shop across the street when all of the sudden a man in a black woolen hat and leather jacket jumped out from behind our van and grabbed me. I struggled hard and managed to back away. Just then the man dipped into my pocket to take my cell phone. I took this half a second to plant myself and shove him backwards. The man fell with a thunk on the sidewalk. I looked on as blood spilled from his head. Someone had called the police. I heard the sirens and felt a touch on my arm and saw the shadow of a blue uniform. But before I could say thank you , the police man twisted my arm back and started to cuff me. He thought I was the bad person shoving someone down to get to their cell phone! I panicked. A crowd of spectators was gathering with various reports of the incident. I backed away slowly while the officer was taking notes. I started shaking and wanted shelter. My church friends were still inside the other restaurants ordering their lunch. I saw an open cop car and crawled in behind the drivers seat like a scared child. I heard my pastors voice explaining that he had no idea what happened. Then all I heard was the rush of blood in my ears and the pounding of my heart as I sat curled up in the seat well. Suddenly there was a hand of a man wearing a light blue work shirt. In his hand he held out a brass key with the loop in the shape of a heart. I felt I should take it. I did. Underneath the key were the words FORGIVEN written in blue ink on the man's palm.
2 weeks had gone by in my dream. The key was tied around my neck with a black ribbon. It was my security as I testified in court about the attack. The court case was a very stressful ordeal for me. I had to retell the attack in front of my attacker and dozens of people. I also had to testify why I resisted arrest. Being in a panic after being jumped on from behind I thought the officer was another attacker! Who was wrong? Who was guilty? I was so confused.
I came home and stood in front of the bathroom mirror and looked at my exhausted self. Then I started shaking and the shaking got stronger until I finally collapsed in a heap of tears on the bathroom floor clutching the brass key with the heart. Shaking shaking and crying I writhed in pain and guilt . When finally the shaking subsided I opened my fist and saw the key. Only this time there was a spot of blood in my palm where the key had dug in and a pink heart indentation where the ring pressed it's mark on my hand......FORGIVEN ......
Then I woke up
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